this is probably the only sex gif i will every reblog, because for some reason i feel like it’s more than just sex. i don’t know if it’s how they’re actually looking at one another or the way they can’t get close enough. he’s actually looking at her like a person and not just a sex object.
but then again, it could be all in my head. i mean, this is how i would want it to be. but that’s just me
It’s another one of those long nights where I sit here re consolidating myself preventing myself from just letting things out. Thinking the worst possible thing ever.
Ontop of that I miss my old friends I would consider close, actually scratch that any friends. A majority of them don’t make the effort for me, it’s usually me doing things to get them out so we can talk and have a laugh. Like now I’m sitting here wishing that one of my friends stopped being the stuck up stupid bitch that she is and come talk to me. But she’s to busy going out there and living a really shit life, where I tried to help her away from this. Kinda glad she’s gone but at the same time she was someone I could talk to. Now I’m going to just have to sit here and sink back into the loneliness of my room trying not to cry because there is honestly no one. I’ve tried these sites where i sit and message a stranger or talking to a bot. but it’s not the same there’s just no emotion back to what you are saying it’s the usual same replies “that sucks” “i’m sorry” “are you okay” i’d like some emphasis. some “hey you should come meet me so we can chat and give you a hug cause you seem like you really need it” or some “how are you so okay when all you do is look out for others but never yourself” no one questions that. It’s just “hey you’re okay we wont bother asking you you’re smiling”….
I honestly wish I would just disappear right now. Not die not kill myself none of this just vanish. See how many people would actually miss me, besides the obvious 2 that I know and some of my family which of my other friends would care. It kinda sounds whiney the way I’m typing this out like “I want attention” and to be honest I kinda do but it’s the relationship / friendship sort of attention not the “hey lets give you attention to shut up”
I don’t even know anymore. I’m typing this and not actually thinking this is just a trail of thought i’m having now and I don’t even know who will actually read this…